Wine Down 002: Self Doubt
Wine Downs are my semi-monthly way to give a behind the scenes look at the ups and downs that come with starting/running an online business, and being a young lady entrepreneur in a brand new city (Houston, TX by way of Baton Rouge, LA).
These posts will be really informal compared to my other posts. It’s my way of letting my visitors into this journey that I’m crazy excited about and how I deal with common issues that arise from interacting with clients, networking, taking care of myself, developing my passion/craft and more.
Don’t be afraid to leave a comment/rant ;) I hope you enjoy.
Disclaimer: I am writing this after an unknowingly strong cup of cold brew. I feel like I have the mind of a toddler right now.
I battle with self-doubt almost everyday. I am fully aware that my self-doubt comes from the amazingly high expectations I set for myself and this feeling that I have in the bottom of my gut that I have no idea what I’m doing with my life.
Yup, I was one of those people that thought I was supposed to have everything together at 23.
I’m 24. Twenty - four. Forty-Eight divided by two. Ask me if I have this “life thing” figured out, and I will burst into laughter.
Anyway, I like to think of self-doubt like it’s an army of ants. They smell sugar/sense me about to embark on something new, and they come marching in loud and aggressively.
(I don’t know much about ants, so if they don’t actually smell sugar my bad lol)
Self-doubt will creep it’s way into things that I know I did great on, and is always apparent when I think about the future of Hued.
I know self-doubt is normal, but this inner mutiny some of us have got going on will take us out of the game if we don’t get it under control.
So if self-doubt is marching into your mental space, running it’s sticky little feet all over your thoughts, ask yourself these questions:
What is it about what I’m doing/about to do/asked to do/etc. that I think that I can’t execute on?
Honestly and logically, what am I afraid of?
What will truly happen if I don’t execute this thing “perfectly”?
One thing that 2017 has taught me, is that I can be super dramatic when it comes to “outcomes”.
For example, I had to teach myself that it’s not the end of the world if my business grows slow. The world won’t fall apart if the interest in my business or services goes through slow periods.
I’m blessed to have a support system that can sustain me during those times. I make sure to remind myself that there will be slow periods, and there will be an end to them.
(I don’t want super super fast growth. A lot of the times people that grow too fast, don’t get the time to set up systems and processes to nurture and maintain that growth.)
I wanting to actively trust in my talent and growth in 2018. No more waiting until something is perfect.
How many times has self-doubt gotten you to push back the launch/publish of something, then finally you get past your self-doubt, launch it anyway, then it goes perfectly fine?
When was the last time you had some serious self doubt about something, and what ended up being the outcome?
Let me know in the comments!